Heat Wave

At 5 a.m. it was already a hot and humid 86 degrees. Decided to forgo the walk this morning and will go to the gym this afternoon. It doesn't help that I am still fighting pain in my left foot. Took 2 Tylenol at 5 and will take Advil this afternoon. Guess I'm really going to have to call the doctor.

Back to the marshmallows. The bag is emptying fast. I'm using them as dog treats!!!

Realization

It isn't that I haven't known for the last 15 years that I am obese, fat, pudgy, plump, or any of the other words to describe too many inches around the waist, chest, legs, arms, etc. It isn't that I don't see those three or four chins when I look into a mirror. I see those things, I feel the pain when I walk, I know the humiliation when I feel both sides of a chair when I sit or try to park my body in a restaurant booth. It wasn't until I stepped on the scales in July when I went for a bone density test (stepping on the scale was the hardest part of the test). I realized then that the numbers just don't lie. I was steadily getting fatter, when in the past, I had just maintained at a level of fat that I found tolerable. So, I decided that for three weeks I would severely cut my normal intake of calories (my favorite breakfast was a cinnamon roll from Quik Trip - if you haven't had one, you just don't know what you're missing). So, on or about August 14, 2011, I gave up most white flour, white sugar and butter. I am a Paula Deen fan and truly have believed that those three ingredients can make most things taste better. I have eaten fruit and vegetables, lean meat, and if, and I do mean if, I had any bread of any sort, it was whole grain. Monday was our Biggest Loser at work and I had lost 13 pounds!!! So pround of myself. No cookies, no cake for me. I am changing my life. My biggest splurge has been a marshmallow. Did you know that they are fat free? When the bag in the pantry is gone, there will be no more in my house!!!

Enough rambling. I have realized that I am fat and am going to change.